My Way of Saying Goodbye

Inspire me
Make me gag
I’ll be the best thing
That you’ve ever had
Say goodbye
Make mistakes
I’ll be your mistake
If that’s what it takes

Cross your heart
Never die
The broken pieces
Let you fly
I’ve got wings
That I hide
And you know why
You know why

I'm Never Coming Back

I’ve climbed the tallest tree
I’ve lived my life in black
I’m standing atop the mountain top
And I’m never coming back
And you can ask your questions
But I don’t give a shit
Cause truth be told, I’ve given up
I’m finally done with it

So let’s count to a billion
Throw our hearts into the sky
Pray for our existence
To be nothing but a lie
Interlock our fingers
And jump into that bed of blue
And we’ll suffocate forever
Just me and you

He Knows When You're Awake

I’m the fucking Santa Clause
I know when you‘re asleep
I know when you’re vulnerable
I know when you are weak
I’m the fucking Santa Clause
I know what you’re awake
I know your every move
I know all your mistakes

Ho ho ho
Did you think you’d escape me?
Ho ho ho
Did you think you’d survive me?
Ho ho ho
You should know by now, kid
Ho ho ho
It’s all about timing

Hey suckers, lock your doors
It’s starting to get dark
I’ll find my own way in
And you know I’ll leave my mark
Don’t worry about the kids
As long as they’re in bed
They’ll get their special treat
While you’re fucking with their heads

I’m the fucking Santa Clause
I know when you‘re asleep
I know when you’re vulnerable
I know when you are weak
I’m the fucking Santa Clause
I know what you’re awake
I know your every move
I know all your mistakes

Ho ho ho
Did you think you’d destroy me?
Ho ho ho
Did you think you’d catch me?
Ho ho ho
You cannot see me
Ho ho ho
Baby, just try me

Hey suckers, guess who’s back?
I’m coming to town
And I’ll visit everyone
You know I’ll track you down
Don’t worry, I won’t forget
I’ve got a list of all your names
I don’t care if you’re bad or good
To me it’s all the same

I’m the fucking Santa Clause
I know when you‘re asleep
I know when you’re vulnerable
I know when you are weak
I’m the fucking Santa Clause
I know what you’re awake
I know your every move
I know all your mistakes

Hey suckers, what’s the date?
Yeah, it’s that time of year
It’s time to celebrate
You know I’ll bring the fear
Don’t worry you’re pretty head
Just fill those holes with dreams
Rest those eyes and hold your breath
I just wanna hear you scream

The Pretty Colors

I can achieve perfection
With the click of a button
But what’s it worth?
We all know it’s just pretend

So maybe I can hurt you
And maybe I can lie
And maybe I can be the girl
Who makes you want to die
So I’m everything I hate
And it’s not hard to see
I’m everything I’d kill you for
If you were ever to be
Yeah, I’m a hypocrite
‘Cause I failed my own test
And you would leave me now
If you knew what was best

Oh, every pretty color
That’s standing in my way
Oh, every pretty color
That just won’t go away
I’ll kill them with the darkest black
That their eyes have ever seen
I don’t care if you’re magenta
Orange, blue, or green

I Knew You'd Say it First

A couple right things to say at the right time
And I’m glad to call, I’m glad to call you mine
All the time
Warped like a doll and wrapped in paper
Your candy kisses say that I’ll be safer
Here with you
You smiled when I said I wanna be together
Didn’t take me too long for me to say forever
And I meant it
When you look in my direction it tastes like wine
And I always end up wasted by the end of the night
Scream my name

Just a few moments and everything’s different
Just look back at the beginning
We’ve come so far without even noticing

Marry me, oh, marry me
In a broken church just down the street
A love story they didn’t see
Coming
Take my hand and let it be
Not a care, so trick-or-fucking-treat
Let them look at me
And you

Just Rotten

We argue just to make conversation
Bite the dust just to taste the flavor
And I wanna know what it feels like
Cause we’re all curious
And I’d love to find a getaway
Escape for just a moment or two
Some dissect, some inject
But not me, I sit here and rot

Am I rotting?
Tell me now
Am I rotting?
My lips are blue
Am I dying?
I can’t believe
This is happening
Is this
Really happening?
Getting up
Feeling weaker
On my feet
Feeling numb
Am I rotting?
I feel it now
Am I rotting?
My bones collapse
It’s all over
Everything
Amounts to nothing
Everything
Leading up to this
Tell me now
Did it get to you?
Help me die
Am I falling?
Deeper now
Am I falling in?
Dark black hole
Yes, I’m falling in
Never ends
Why’s this happening?
Never ends
Get me out of here
Kill me now
I’m already dead
Zombie now
Here forever
Skin, bones, and blood
Am I rotting?

Who I Really Am

I tear holes into my face
Knowing that they will soon be scars
I look at my reflection
And say “this is who you are”
“You don’t deserve to be pretty”
“You’re a monster inside”
“You’re hideous, you’re ugly”
“When they said you’re not, they lied”
And they know who I am
Know what I become
But only the ones that come close
And there are only some
I feed on the ones I love
They hear me scream, and feel my breath
Breathing down their necks
It feels like death

Don't Be Vain, Happiness Is Shame

Happiness is vain
Self-love is incestuous
When you touch me I’m afraid
Because surely it’s a lie
‘Cause I don’t understand why
And it’s better that way
Or else I wouldn’t need you here
Wouldn’t care if you were near

I just wanna see the autumn leaves
Changing color, falling down
I’ll wear this costume religiously
When you meet me on the ground
See you later, summer breeze
Pack your suitcase, wear your frown

Life isn’t simple
No matter what they say
No matter how they say it
No matter if it’s true
They’ll surely fill your head with nonsense
That won’t mean shit in the end
And the end is when we die
Won’t matter if we try

Can I Go To Sleep Now?

Heavy head
eyelids fall
I rip open my skin
To forget it all
I shed every layer
To see what's inside
'Cause all I want is a place
Somewhere warm to hide
But it's too cold in here
Full of spiders and ghosts
Full of everything I try to be
And what I hate most
But I use myself anyway
Make due with what I've got
Can I turn on the heater?
Melt all the frost?
It's like winter
Without your touch
Cause when you hold me
The heat is too much
I just want your arms around me
Without the fear of letting go
Just like it used to be
'Cause I'm not prepared for snow

First Reflection

Mirror, mirror, on the wall
Will you catch me quick, or let me fall?
Lie to me, or watch me die
My own, is this window’s eye
Save me, glass, or I’ll break you back
And those are seven years I’ll never get back

Candles and stars, pennies and bones
Wishes I can never take back
And with broken streets, I’m all alone
And I don’t know what to wish for anymore

Mirror, mirror, on the wall
Will you ever say sorry for it all?
For giving illusions of hope,
A future you’d never envelope
It’s been spit on by told-you-so’s and spit on by flies
Guess this is what happens when the mailman dies

Candles and stars, pennies and bones
Wishes I can never take back
And with broken streets, I’m all alone
And I don’t know what to wish for anymore

Mirror, mirror, on the wall
I hate you for two-timing, and all the close-calls
You’re a reliable source
For “oh yes”, and “of course”
But I’ve been fooled enough in this youth
And I’m seeking out the truth

Do I Know You?

Lifeless body shedding flesh
Died without a name
Call it corpse
And tag it, stamp it
Buy a grave
You know you planned it
Guilt and pleasure
Co-existing together
Isn’t this what you wanted
More than ever?
New emotions
You refuse to believe in
Regret and panic
Head of static
But that’s just the cover-story
You know it clearly
Denying seeing
Patiently bleeding
Caused by scissor fingers
I’ll play Edward
Cuts expected
Hard to reject it
Forced to accept it
That time I felt it
The smallest of cuts
Oh please be careful
Who are you trying to fool?
Dig right in it
Don’t try to fight it
When the world gives you
Exactly what you asked for
So what the hell are you
Hesitating for?
You know it’s your desire
Growing rapidly
More and more
Each day, hour
Minute, second
Devastation, defeat
Each cut more satisfying
Than the previous
What else would the people
Invent scissors for?
They very specifically
Had you in mind
Just like all the other inventions
Who else would they
Be intentionally for?
Cause you, of course,
They can’t ignore
You’re needs are screaming
Ambulance siren
Cause it’s obvious now
This skin is wearing thin
Poor fresh cadaver
With no friends at all
Except for its own skeleton
See the damage you’ve done
All these cuts that touch within
Deliciously deadly sin
Your scissored hands
Will always win
Over all logic
And common sense
And you’re one to think
About every action
Before it happens
You were always the sensible one
And look at you now
Simply coward
Sick with power
And also sick with blood
Look at this body
The body you’ve now claimed
You didn’t have to sign your name
On it’s rotting bones
And heart and brain
To call it yours
It’s always been

Rest In Peace

I hear their sounds of snoring and gagging
Mortals sleep with chance of a nightmare
As I lay restless in my sleepless immortal
I’d say they’re lucky when compared
This nightly slow suffering
Is quickly getting old
So insane and so alone
If only I could surrender myself
To an effortless time consuming dream
To hind from myself, and drown out my silent screams
But my lids will not drop
And my mind will not stop
It knows my weakness all too well
Just enough to get me to sell
My body to the anger
And pain that surround me
I swear it’s the last time I give in
But I know better than to lie

Never Forget Me

Written on the back of a restaurant napkin
Is everything I’ve ever wanted to say to you
But that along with garbage
And every copy of the daily news
Has been thrown out and burnt up
For the air to use
It’s now the smoke that pollutes us
Makes us cough and choke
That pokes holes in our city
What a beautiful hoax
Do you dare to breathe in
That whole-hearted smoke?
The wind and dust that carries my heart
Across the bridge and over the sea
And down the throats of the unsuspecting
Forever darkening their ideal scenes
The sky will tell my broken words
For the times you won’t even look at me

All the times you’ve failed to memorize
The words I’ve told you a thousand times
The words I’ve etched into your skin
With everything I’ve ever been
Bleeding till the words stand out
Dark and crusted never doubt

At your feet drops a torn up picture
The me I thought you’d never see
You study it for all it is
Take in every inch of me
Every fault and imperfection
All the things I’d sworn I’d never be
Your acceptance proves to me everything
Proves just how undeserving
And how much I take for granted
The way you keep my whole world turning
And fixing every broken piece
And extinguish every fire burning
The way you hold me in your arms
I never want to leave
And when you say you’ll stay forever
I truly do believe
So don’t go slicing every bit
When my eyes seem to deceive

All the times you’ve failed to memorize
The words I’ve told you a thousand times
The words I’ve etched into your skin
With everything I’ve ever been
Bleeding till the words stand out
Dark and crusted never doubt

The Worms

The worms
On the ground
In the damp
In the cold

The rain
Beats the worms
Laying still
In the cold

The worms
Beneath your feet
On the ground
In the damp

The clouds
Eat the sun
Pour the rain
On the ground

The worms
Cannot cry
Cannot weep
In the rain

The world
Cannot see
Every worm
Every cloud

The worms
In the damp
Do not know
There’s a sun

Your heart
With every beat
Kills a worm
Eats the rain

The worms
The worms
The worms
Cannot see

Young And Foolish

Dress soaked in his pretty blood
And he’s never wanted her more
Colors complementing each ruby dot
And he’s never wanted her more
Eager only to rip her up
He’s never wanted anything more

Young and foolish, don’t think twice
Now present your human sacrifice
She’s cold and waiting at your door
For you to take her heart and nothing more

Thirsty eyes that stare her down
And she’s never trusted him more
Sharp teeth that seem to call her in
And she’s never trusted him more
Every second makes her fear him more
She’s never trusted him before

Young and foolish, don’t think twice
Now present your human sacrifice
She’s cold and waiting at your door
For you to take her heart and nothing more


She’d be smart to run away
Pack her bags make him beg her to stay
And he’d be smart to leave her alone
Forget desire, just go home

But he’s never wanted her more
No, he’s never wanted her more
So much he can’t ignore
Like never before, before
And she’s never trusted him more
Despite everything that’s logical
She’s a fool and nothing more
Letting mindless passion take control

So young and foolish, they pay the price
All too willing to sacrifice
Leave all logic at the door
You’ll break her heart and so much more

Young and foolish, don’t think twice
Now present your human sacrifice
She’s cold and waiting at your door
For you to take her heart and nothing more

Ghost In The Halls

A ghost in the halls
More bitter than sweet
Bitter on those nights when
You’re trying to sleep
Drowned beneath cold sheets
Your safe place to hide
And it’s always been that same place
Since you were only five

What drags you out from under covers
Is your determination to dare
Do you dare take a gander
At what stands atop the stairs?
You look out your bedroom
To find nothing but a hall
So was it all imagination?
Are you crazy after all?

But away with all logic
Cause night after night
Those same sounds destroy you
Give you that same fright
The whispers, the footsteps
It’s all getting old
And no one believes you
Or the stories you’ve told

You seek out explanation
You’ve read every book
But there be not an answer
Or so it may look
If only the world were beside you
In your time of need
Instead of rejecting
And refusing to believe

But for now, you’re alone
With your bed and your hall
In hopes it won’t notice you
And win you over after all
Until the world will believe you
You too will be
A ghost in the halls
That no one can see

My Favourite Way To Die

Old obsessions leave new regrets
But they’re times I hope I’ll never forget
But they slip away slowly, bit by bit
They’ll surely catch up with me, but not yet
Oh what a standard I have set
For every love and for every event

Writing songs to you as if you existed
But you’ve only ever existed
In my own head
And I held on to you with all my strength
But you never existed
I lost my head

And I fell for you maybe twice as hard
As I would have fallen if you weren’t a star
Cause false expectation never goes very far
Unless it’s going 190 in my red hot car
I thought we had connected hearts
But it was merely some sort of simulated scar

Writing songs to you as if you existed
But you’ve only ever existed
In my own head
And I held on to you with all my strength
But you never existed
I lost my head

The start of insanity
The end of my life
The beginning of forever
Ended so right
And I never really loved you
I was blinded that night
By your overpowering vibe
And your safety light

Writing songs to you as if you existed
But you’ve only ever existed
In my own head
And I held on to you with all my strength
But you never existed
I lost my head

Prisoner

Being fed through the bars
You beg for more
You’re so vulnerable
That desperation I adore
And I’ll keep you forever
In that padlocked cage
And only let you out
If you promise to behave
I know you wouldn’t dare
To try and do me wrong
You’d never try to get away
Cause you know where you belong

I’m blinded by you
Cause I don’t want to see
I’m consumed by you
Cause I want to be
There’s nobody else
No room for me
And I swear to god, my dear
I’ll never set you free

This may be unhealthy
And I may be insane
So intoxicated
But don’t you like it that way?
We can make this beautiful
We can make this poetic
Like twisted lovers
So dead and sympathetic
I’ll throw my head back
And scream out “dance with me”
And we’ll tango through the icicles
And the cauliflower trees

I’m blinded by you
But I don’t want to see
I’m consumed by you
But I want to be
There’s nobody else
No room for me
And I swear to god, my dear
I’ll never set you free

I’ll hold you captive
For always in my room
It’ll soon become our coffin
Our king-sized luxury tomb

I’m blinded by you
But I don’t want to see
I’m consumed by you
But I want to be
There’s nobody else
No room for me
And I swear to god, my dear
I’ll never set you free

You Make Me Whole

It was so much easier when I loved an illusion
Though it may have wasted time and caused thought pollution
It gave me more certainty and a lot less confusion
Knowing all ahead of me, I came to a conclusion
Cause it all goes your way, on a one-way street
Do we really need the other half, to truly feel complete?
But once you feel the touch of something physical, concrete
No other way of life could ever dare compete

And maybe I love it when you scream at me
Prove to me you’re real
Show me your emotions
Show me how much I make you feel
I love it when you’re angry
When you make me die inside
When you give me a taste of torture
Give me trills I can’t deny
Maybe I’m just sick
Messed up mentally
But I love the way it feels
When you kill me accidentally
Maybe I just love the fact
That you give me a reason to cry
So I don’t have to make excuses
Don’t have to wonder why

Dull Needle

Dull needle
Take my blood away
Watch each vial fill up
That pain I like so much
Dull needle
Take my blood away

Tie me down to the table
Atop that big white sheet of fear
You know I want you to hurt me
With that evil smile of yours
With your dirty rubber gloves on
You hold my arm so tight
This nauseating medication
Will surely warp my dreams tonight
You know I’m right
I’m always right

Dull needle
Take my blood away
Watch each vial fill up
That pain I like so much
Dull needle
Take my blood away

What did I do to deserve this
Reward or punishment?
Suspended from the ceiling
Mutilated carcasses
Can barely open my eyes
I go towards the light
I still feel your deadly grip
And I know it’s not my time
You know I’m right
I’m always right

Dull needle
Take my blood away
Watch each vial fill up
That pain I like so much
Dull needle
Take my blood away

The smell of fire
So overwhelming
The demon is present
I can hear him laughing
He wants to scare me
And I’m going to let him

Dull needle
Take my blood away
Watch each vial fill up
That pain I like so much
Dull needle
Take my blood away

The Wrong Person To Love

She's the kind of girl who will never give you compliments
Never in a million years would she admit you're better than herself
And she'll tell you she's sorry, but is what she's saying true?
'Cause when she looks into your eyes, she only lies to you

She'll make you say you trust her, then she'll take it all away
She never makes you promises, 'cause she knows they're gonna break
But when she does, it's all because she likes it when you ache

She's the wrong person to love
But you've fallen, now it's over
Has she fallen from above?
Or does she paint her face like an angel?

You've apologized a thousand times
But the guilt still seems to burn
She'll make you hate this awful fate
Of falling in love with her

Sometimes We Switch Roles

Maybe, oh maybe, I live in your head
To scare away monsters, and make you feel dead
I gave you my entire self
My heart, my attention, and everything else
You're my whole life, can I be your's too?
You can keep me forever and tell me what to do
Abuse me, control me, because you adore
Me trapped in your head, locked inside with no doors

Self-Portrait

Can't stand the pain,
But I crave the after-blood

I'm so strange,
You'd think I was on drugs

Party true,
But not the way you thought

I never do,
Risky things; I'm a robot

You tell me,
"Be happy with what you've got"

And I should be,
'Cause it's true, I have alot

But only you,
Matter in my heart

When you're around,
I've got everything I want

But have nothing,
When you are not

Air Bubbles

I'll do all the things I shouldn't do
And tell myself I'm bad
I never listen, never learn
No wonder you get mad

You're so much more than I deserve
So patient and so wise
You're everything I thought I was
What a fucking surprise

Our love now relies on bubbles
Of non-polluted air
And now that only one remains
We can't afford to spare

'Cause in this last air pocket
Lives our stitched-together hearts
Peacefully beating
Until they're ripped apart

Forget about the other girls
I'm the only one you need
They'll never love you like I do
My emotions are full speed

And it may have its downsides
This intense lifestyle of mine
At times you won't be happy
At times I won't be kind

But with extremely painful low
Comes an apologetic high
Like ecstacy you've never felt
So good you wanna die

You're like tourture so delicious
Make me scream and make me sick
I hate it and I love it
There's no one else I'd pick

My depression makes you hate me
Which makes me hate myself
Yet you still seem to chose me
Over everybody else

Hell's God

Think me not a gentle soul
For I am the Devil, god of gold
I reside in hell and in your lungs
As you breathe me, be me, one by one

Think me not an honest face
For I am the Devil, king of the chase
I know your every secret fear
For I am the one who put them there

Think me not your holy saint
For I am the Devil, the dripping paint
I'm that evil look on your mother's face
Once you've found out that she's been replaced

I Finally Found You

My bones are in pieces
My skin is in shreds
I lay my carcass down
On this coffin-shaped bed
I grip my hand tightly
And ask myself why
How did this happen?
How did I die?

What I Watch When I Sleep

My Subconscious is trying to tell me something
In my state of dream
Send me a message, a warning perhaps
But what does it all mean?
Images of blood and gore
A fate I can't escape?
But this horror spell is something more
For reality to create
A vision, an epiphany
Acknowledging my deepest fears
Or the things I most adore?
Making me reasess my morals
Everything I'm living for
Twisted and sick, those close to me
I watch them fall apart so digustingly
Refusing to obey me
My mind has a mind of its own
Seems I can't control myself
Seems I cannot win

Seeing Demons

Demon in the form of a thick black smoke,
Tell me what I've done,
To deserve your presence,
Deserve your call,
Why am I the chosen one?
'Cause to show your face on this hot, bright day,
Seems so out of place,
So ironic,
So disturbing,
A heavenly disgrace.

If You Go, You'll Come Back

If you ever chose to leave,
Not saying that you will,
Sending me that goodbye letter,
Don't you know I'll love you still?
'Cause I'll analyze your every word,
To find out why you left,
And I'll write you back a thousand times,
Just hoping for the best,
And I'll be right there when you return,
Waiting by the door,
'Cause it's just not you to go away,
And not come back for more.